It’s past two a.m. and my husband’s breathing has become long and even.
An opportunity presents itself. I slip my right hand down my pajama
pants and move slowly, careful not to bump my elbow into his side rib,
or bring my hips into it. Too much movement or sound will wake him, and
to be found out for something like this is not just embarrassing but
potentially destructive. He’ll think he doesn't satisfy me, and men do
not like feeling inadequate, especially when it comes to matters of the
bedroom. Or maybe he’ll feel sorry for me. And who wants to fuck someone they pity?
-Narratively